You Still Love Me
by Courtney Smith
Here I am, broken, tour apart, embarrassed, full of emotions. My eyes are swelling up with tears and my heart is filling up with pain, and oddly at the same time, joy. Jesus, I know you are for me. Your love is everlasting and perfect. You never change. You never stopped loving me when I hurt your heart, when I let you down, all the countless times I have so pathetically not trusted you…you never stopped being here for me. You never left me an orphan, never ever did you leave. You make me complete. In the midst of my pain and suffering I will praise you, Jesus. You deserve it. I deserve nothing. You deserve everything good. Everything that you want, you deserve. How you love me, and all of humanity after all that we’ve done, amazes me. You are all I need. All I’ll ever need. You are my hearts desire. You are my life. You are my best friend. My Father. My savior. My healer. My beautiful deliverer. You want honesty. You want me. All of me. You want us to have a relationship, and a relationship we have. I know my pain and suffering, my brokeness, my tears, my hearts winter, it is all a test of my faith. Will I stay? Will I stand strong? Will I surrender it all and fall at your feet? My Savior, My Lord, I will stay. I will stand strong, but only because of you. I will surrender it all. I will fall at your feet. Broken and eyes full of tears, I am at your feet, Jesus. And amazingly, you still love me.
Wow! I came across this looking for something else, and thought this was so beautiful and honest and open. Thanks for posting
That’s such a compliment! Thank you for reading and commenting!